Its insane that we live in a work where Paul walker dies, an actor that made a few movies. Then Nelson Mandela one of the most influential men in history passes away and we hear more about the actor. What is wrong with our world???
I used to envy people with no responsibility. Then today I realized, I’m very lucky. I started thinking like an adult when I was a child. Now here I am quickly approaching 24 and I’m perfecting my life. I’ve worked myself to where I want to be. Now I get to make it what I want it to be. I might not drive the nicest car or have the fanciest shoes. But I have what I need and a lot of what I want. I’m happy where I am. I love my job, I love my friends, and I love most of my family. I know my life will never be a fairy tale but hell the chaos is what makes it exciting
I create these scenarios in my mind. Anything from future relationships to jobs I might have. But I realized that in these scenarios, I can be whoever I want to be. I can do whatever I want to do. I get to be anyone and I love it. Some people ask me why I sleep so much…well, its simply because in my dreams I have the perfect life!
I learned things about myself today! I learned that while my decisions might not be 100% right, but they are 100% right for me. I am happier, I am stronger, I am more positive. I am finally happy with the direction my life is in. I’m training, eating better, spending time with family, volunteering, and most importantly, I’m getting to know myself! Someone who I lost a long time ago!